ABOUT THIS BLOG -- I was once a writer published the old fashioned way. I am trying to relearn that skill after 15 years of silence, exploring a topic that many are scared to explore. Seeking or being involuntary placed in mental health treatment creates a stigma for the patient -- no matter how strong or trustworthy that patient was before treatment, they are somehow deemed weak and untrustworthy. In my 30 years of psychotherapy and 15 years of silence, I've observed that should something go wrong between clinician and patient, the clinician gets the benefit of the doubt. There are advocates and organizations that are supposed to counterbalance this tendency, but I feel even they are flawed. This is a blog about my journey.

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 I originally posted this to another location. I don't even try here now. Copy and paste. Here ya go --

"I am putting this here because I caught blogger lying about my blog hit count. (Edit - later, I found italic text non-italicised, and justified paragraph alignment right justified, despite I did not edit those posts.) The hit counter was either correct yesterday or correct today but not both - so I'm putting blogger in observation.

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Considering so many people seem so dictated by their internal noise, I must wonder the source of their internal noise. Do they ask themselves -- will I be proud of doing that? Will I be ashamed of doing that? Since we need to spell it out -- I guess the better questions for the morally devoid would be -- will I be proud of doing that if I am figured out? Will I be ashamed of that if I am figured out? I really question this in the field of mental health -- there are no rules, and the mind, for the human, is the center of all things; it is the repository of all things we, as individuals, have learned, it is a basis of our human experience, the mind even has a limited capacity to heal the body, it can even keep the heart ticking. But I guess there are people who would rather damage both of those body parts on another, or perhaps even all of them. Yes, make the sickest people cower -- that's hospitable; correct? And yes, make a fool out of someone who would have been otherwise kind to you, and yet wonder why mental illness is considered to be the most common illness in America.

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We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable (inalienable) Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness." The American Declaration of Independence

I link the wiktionary entry to each of the words because there are those would interpret it in a bastardized way, such as the following --

We require these truths to be proven only to us that because the era this document was written we were our own brand of Christian and so chauvinistic that only white heterosexual Christian men (despite that back then adulthood legally was considered less than 18 or 21 years of age) with giant phalli have rights bestowed upon them by Divine Kings by a portion of their person for the sole purpose of becoming Divine Kings to obstruct anything we choose whenever we choose, and if you prance around in skin-tight cat-suits and stroke only our egos, then we might let you live.

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"Intolerance, self glorified ignorance
That sucked you down with your face pushed against the fence
Why don't you finish yourself, since you don't really care [...]
Just give it a go
Hey you, what the fuck is wrong with you? [x4]
What the fuck is wrong with you? [x3]
Part of me (part of me)
Suffocate (suffocate)
Tolerate (tolerate) [...]
Experience (experience)
Intolerance (intolerance)
Familiar (familiar)"

-- 'WTF is Wrong With You People?' by Combichrist

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Now, let's attempt a more reasonable approach.

It is said that this rule as found in the second paragraph of this post is one of the most important written rules in American history. Without it America's past 245 years would have been very different and the American way of life; other ways of life by way of association, would be very different. This document was written for really one purpose - self-respect. But we can split it into two purposes. (1) to create self-respect and order amongst like-minded individuals, and (2) to inform the Old World, and all other willing to listen, that we had tried everything we could think of the work with the bully, but since the relationship has become unbearable, we are dissolving our union with the bully and refusing to pay taxes. We'll drink coffee instead of your tea! (I have nothing inherently against tea, but I culturally I gravitate toward coffee. Matter of fact, I was one of the last to stockpile for Covid, and I still made sure to get the biggest box of my favorite tea.)

So let's look at the sentence at the beginning of this blog in its parts to view the whole clearly.

The first word is 'we.' Not I, not you, not them, not they. The syntax starts with the word 'we'. At the time of my writing this blog, this indicates that 327+ million people that currently call the current landmass named the United States of America home, and possibly their friends are included in this word. In 1776, this was a different number. Next year, decade, century, millennia, the number may be different, but right now the 327+ million people that call themselves America are this first word.

The next words are "hold these truths to be self-evident." That means the 327+ million people that currently call the United States of America home plus all those people, with their identities at that time, who have called it or one of its variations home from 1776 until this moment plus some, attest and maintain that this document, or at least, "[w]e hold these truths to be self-evident," is self-proving or otherwise a given.

Then what is the given?

"[T]hat all men are created equal." The word 'men' is plural of the word 'man,' and derives form of the word huMAN i.e. sapien, which may or may not have physical and genetic qualities of sapiens' ancestors and may or may not also have already started to evolve into whatever is next. And if I were some other of God's creature than human, I'd submit the previous sentence and the following to be considered for their encyclopedia entry for 'human.'

Humans are the most common species of primate found on planet Earth, but they can be occasionally found visiting and residing, for short periods of time, outside Earth. They are the top of Earth's food chain as they have dominated over most other species; however, there is an occasional, sometimes worldwide, war with pathogens or each other; or, at a local level, with a range of undesirable small species they call insects and rodents. Historically, humans were famous for their delicate balance of compassion, learning and techniques/art of war, as this delicate balance best guaranteed their survival.

Humans may be male, female, neither, both, identifiable or unidenitfiable; however, the most common are male and female and cells from one of each are required for the humans to reproduce naturally.

Humans' skin has several textures, regardless of other identifying features, that range from smooth to rough, moist to dry, sensitive to tough, thick and thin skin sometimes having different textures found on an individual. The skin ranges in color from the lightest of off-white to the darkest brown-black, and what some interpret as dark red or red brown skin. The skin may or may not have visible patches or spots or lighter or darker skin.

Human fur can be found on many parts all over the body, but is most commonly found on the head, loins and armpits. Human infants and children generally do not have much fur as humans don't grow all their fur until reproductive maturity. Human fur can be straight, curly or in between, and much like, but not necessarily identical the individual's skin, ranges in color from the lightest of off-white to the darkest of black to the reddest of red. Aging humans may have grey fur; grey fur interspersed with the fur color they had in their youth, and ageing males may lose the fur from their heads. The involuntary loss of fur in females usually indicates poor health. Some prefer to remove their fur or artificially change their fur's colors. Fur may be long or short, but the longest fur is generally found on the head. Humans' fur ranges in texture from silky to woolen and everything in between.

Humans' eyes, which there are generally two, are located on the upper portion of the face just above each side of the nose, and they are mostly white, but with a circle of blue, green, grey, amber, hazel, brown, black, or rarely pink-red surrounding a black dot that changes in size.

Humans may come in a variety of heights, weights, widths, depths, strengths, weaknesses, competencies, incompetencies, abilities and disabilities and there is considerable variation amongst shapes and proportions of their parts.

If there is exclusion of anyone, then we are not the 'we' found at the beginning of this rapport; therefore we reference other important documents in order to mediate, in this case what other than the Caucasian male human is considered by us as human, alongside and including the Caucasian male human. I wrote the previous sentence as I did because if we go to the extremes to do unto others what they did or what we perceive they did to us, then we are just as guilty; however, other documents describe situations of protest that are acceptable, and even anarchy and war. Before the majority or minority of any gender or persuasion head dives into this, please remember this is about achieving 'we' and the same rules and freedoms to apply to them. I don't know anyone who wants to live amongst, let long raise babies in a situation that escalates to conflict or war.

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THIS SECTION IS INCOMPLETE AND ON-GOING -

EDIT -- While I never shunned websites like wikihow, I sort of thought that many of their articles were no-brainers. Some articles would give a new perspective on something I already knew, while other would make me giggle because they were about such simple concepts that part of me thought they were attempting comedy -- I guess not. There was only about five articles at this website that I didn't look at it and think either, 'well, no shit,' or 'this article is not entirely accurate.' Usually, it is the former. There is an article hosted there named 'How to be Human.' I think they are missing some things, and adding things that aren't absolute truth, but it's a start. The problem is that the people, who have power, aren't even acting as civilized as wild beasts -- I point this out, and it pisses the 'them' off, so they bring their wrath out on someone else -- like a misguided uncivilized wild animal or even worse. The way I see it is human has mastered, manipulated, or even ruined the world and everything within it more than any natural beast could dream of, so if one is less civilized than even a wild animal, they wish to be seen as less than a wild animal; correct? I guess for some reason, I need to set out on a lifelong endeavor to find words to explain concepts we should all understand. But I guess, I will keep adding more resources about how to be not even emotionally or morally be human, but how to be a mammal, but with the goal to express how to be a specific mammal named human.

NOTE 2 - As it is required for any species to survive, perhaps defining what is not human would be more effective? I thought that was what law was supposed to do -- to define those behaviors that we, as a whole, consider to be self-depreciating -- but as law, even natural law or even natural science,  does not exist, we have to create our own rules and have to concisely explain them at great length repeatedly. So what is NOT human? Some of what is HUMAN is also animal as we are mammals.

Species, of all kinds, do not survive when that species turns on their own species -- it doesn't matter if that species is human, chimpanzee, donkey, elephant, amoeba, virus, bacteria, plant, etc.  But please laugh at someone else's pain, lunge at them with your hackle up; tell them to shut up twice causing a vulnerability to do it to the next person; tell them to simply fall madly in bed with someone; tell them since you don't see it that it does not exist (wow, that's what happened when I socially isolated?); tell them if you throw something up into the sky it is going to stay there (because I guess we are all astronauts and rocket scientists); claim their story is not legit because you think it sounds too much like someone else's; condemn them for not wanting to suffer through it again; take away any of their personal power to do anything about it; scar them as punishment; or mock them until they make a fool of themselves; I sarcastically ask -- because these are going to make any species consciously want to stick around and/or (pro)create? *shakes head* Heck, don't matter if its terrestrial or extraterrestrial, plant, bug, pathogen or animal, I don't think they'd find any of it habitable. Even a rock that is kicked around will eventually wear away. Good God.

END OF SECTION PERTAINING TO THAT WHICH IS INCOMPLETE AND ON-GOING.

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So, now we are back at the beginning of the grammatical sentence - 'we'. Are we 327+ million like-minded people? No. Well then, what was this document to achieve? Self-respect. In between 1776 and now, Americans have felt it necessary to amend this and other documents in order to best mediate disagreements amongst Americans, and to mediate arguments between Americans and other peoples. If we cannot agree on the meaning or translation of important or original rules, we have created entire libraries of texts to help us figure out if we are indeed a 'we', and to discern if the rule, its vernacular, or implementation is reasonable or faulty.

So - "[w]e hold these truths to be self-evident." 327+ million living humans, who reside in and outside of the landmass known as the United States America, accept and maintain this declaration is a given.

"[T]hat they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable (inalienable) Rights". That we have because of grace, virtue and/our our own individual serendipitous natures that may or may not work in concert or unison with others' graces, virtues and/or others' individual serendipitous natures, -- regardless what God or gods each of us worship or do not worship, or who each of us deify or do not deify, -- we have certain enforceable powers and privileges and that cannot be given away, used up, or abandoned.

We, regardless what God or gods each of us do or do not worship or who each of us deify or not deify, as 327+ million living humans, who reside in and outside of the landmass known as the United States America accept and maintain this declaration as a given because of grace, our own virtue and by way of and with our own serendipities, possess certain enforceable powers and privileges and that cannot be given away, used up, or abandoned.

"[T]hat among these". That indicates there are is more than the list that follows. Perhaps one could say these include but are not limited to.

We, regardless what God or gods each of us worship or who each of us deify or don't deify, as 327+ million living humans, who reside in and outside of the landmass known as the United States of America accept and maintain this declaration is a given because of grace, our own virtue and by way of and with our own serendipities, possess certain enforceable powers and privileges that cannot be given away, used up, or abandoned, which include, but are not limited to"

"Life, liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness." I was trying to find words to convey the idea that if one agrees to be peaceful, then peace is more likely to be attained, and if one agrees to fight or otherwise antagonize, conflict is more likely to occur. And I found these in Wikipedia, so it shows that this concept is a more worldly than less worldly. "Liberty, equality, fraternity" of France; "unity, justice and liberty" of Germany; "peace, good order, and good government" of the Commonwealth of Nations, "life, liberty, security of the person (enjoyment of property)" of (A)never(y)thing-read-it-twice's and my northern neighbor Canada; "life, liberty, and property" found elsewhere in American law. Similar can be found in Japan and Vietnam.

"Life". The one thing all these have in common is the right to life, so I don't feel it is necessary to give write a long drawn out translation of the word, but in a rudimentary way it is to extend the possibility continuing of those mundane things as to prevent us from being dead for as long as possible, but also to constructively interact with, be a portion of, and/or or influence our environment.

"Liberty." Freedom, or the ability to do what one chooses, especially under the condition that does not obstruct anyone else from the statement being discussed.

"And the Pursuit of Happiness." Well, we need to define what happiness is. I peacefully went to therapy because I knew I was not happy. This does not indicate that I want my psychotherapist to define it for me. If they do that, it makes them appear to be a tyrant, which also does not make me happy. I peaceably sought out therapy, and in return I received yet another impossible and petty argument by people that abuse their power, physical scars, emotional scars, dishonesty, mockery, apathy, coercion, told to shut up twice, to madly fall in bed with someone, a complete disregard of science, a complete disregard of most good things in the world, hundreds of housefires and protests, thousands of gunshots fired, a whole bunch of dead people before the pandemic, followed by a worldwide pandemic and more dead people, the silent treatment, and everyone I know seems to have lived different lives with different experiences becoming people I have never met before. This is not the loving endure-all family that stuck together since the parents were 16 and 18 years old, that had a baby that was ill, and managed to stay together until this day. I don't know who these people are - I recognize my father's voice some days, but not others. I recognize my mother in some strange way, but not as my mother. I feel like I lost my mother in the 1980s. And whatever was left her was jolted out of her by Tanski lunging at her. Instead of receiving therapy, we got the trashcan, like every other patient that is unable or unwilling to do them a personal favor.

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"You're hiding from feelings, searching for more
Sharing and hoping, untouched for so long[...]
And now, I'll tell you something I think you should know[...]
You caused me confusion, you told me you cared[...]
Ask me no questions, I'll tell you no lies
The past is your present, the future is mine [...]
When I show you what you cannot see
(Confusion)[...]
(Confusion)[...]
(Confusion)[...]
(Confusion)
You've caused me some problems, you've taken my place
Why can't you see[...]"

-- Confusion' by New World Order (1995 Pump Panel mix by Bloodbath, Blade movie)

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Now, I'm a mean, tired, sick, cynical, middle-aged ugly bitch, that still feels like she did when she was 14-year-old, if not even more so, being made more irate because part of me knows my mother was trying to help, being made more irate because I am getting the sneaking impression that 'they' wanted me to homewreck someone else, and being made more irate because I was required to broadcast my personal business, like a showgirl or stripper, on an open forum to make some of the jubjub stop, but really - they're more interested in fixing over there. Over there is more profitable. So what - we do it again? Because that'll make us all happy, right? Because we have been so successful the last million times? Do we have a choice? Another dead family member? Another California Cedar sized family tree through the woodchipper? Another scar? Another round for the bully to hone in on their game?

We, regardless what God or gods each of us worship or who each of us deify, as 327+ million living humans, who reside in and outside of the landmass known as the United States of America accept and maintain this declaration is a given because of grace, our own virtue and by way of and with our own serendipities, possess certain enforceable powers and privileges and that cannot be given away, used up, or abandoned, which include, but are not limited to lif ???

So instead of having the ability to make things right, what do people do? Mock the entire thing like it has no or little value. I say Britain gets to  charge them taxes then.

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Considering so many people seem so dictated by their internal noise, I must wonder the source of their internal noise. Do they ask themselves -- will I be proud of doing that? Will I be ashamed of doing that? Since we need to spell it out -- I guess the better questions for the morally devoid would be -- will I be proud of doing that if I am figured out? Will I be ashamed of that if I am figured out?  I really question this in the field of mental health -- there are no rules, and the mind, for the human, is the center of all things; it is the repository of all things we, as individuals, have learned, it is a basis of our human experience, the mind even has a limited capacity to heal the body, it can even keep the heart ticking. But I guess there are people who would rather damage both of those body parts on another, or perhaps even all of them.